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Q. For my entire life searching for my "true nature" has driven much of my interests and values. I've read and studied many teachings and have practiced long periods of meditation all of which have been satisfying to a degree. However; I remain somewhat short of awakened, I feel "stuck" and running out of time.

A. I understand all too well that frustration of not achieving the assumed goal! And it didn’t help much that one of the core principles of the meditation in which I was trained was: 'don't look for results' (cf. descriptions of achievement states such as 'enlightenment' or 'union with ...' which are key motivators in so many traditions.)

The motivation provided by having an aim like this can go a long way, but in the longer term the mental imagery created by the concomitant expectations is self-limiting. What happens when that motivation (expectations not achieved) runs out?

It's not a problem for everyone, but our infinite Individuality means that some are left with the principle of "there's always further to go" and no apparent means of going further….

I was warned a long time ago that there would come a time when I would reach the end of my own motivation. Looks like you've reached it too!

It can be helpful at this stage to include the 'left-of-field' approach of working with symbols, designed to bypass educated, organising mind and stir some of the roots hidden in the darkness of your unknowing. These roots make fresh connections or stimulate fresh seeing when the mind is tired or the spirit disconsolate. Questions contemplated in quiet, noting what arises without analysing, editing or organising --staying with images or metaphors if possible, as they conceal more than they reveal. Metaphor (Greek metaphora: to carry over) holds significance under the surface. You catch the tail of the tiger, and if you hold long enough, and gently enough, more will be revealed. Images, associations, fragments of response--it doesn't matter -- it will be just one layer

How many layers? You will only know by going further…..

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But Truth is present if it resonates truthfully, and in the process should generate more questions...

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