Q. You said you had something of a collywobble after the last meditation when your solar plexus got over-activated. I am just emerging out of my own days of descent into migraine pain and my nervous system manifesting intense chaos...maybe in an attempt to regain equilibrium. Is there something I am not integrating into my being......and the steelyard keeps moving.
So the real question is how do I integrate more of the Unconditioned, so that integration can happen and the movements can become less violent. more in rest, without the swings from one side of the beam to the other?
A. I am concerned to hear you have had another visit into the dark regions.
However, your self-analysis about equilibrium and intense swings, and not integrating....to me this sounds like results, not causes? Also the act of self-analysis can generate unsteadiness, because the one who says:. I'm not integrating... I need to equilibrate...etc'. cannot actually do it, and so the swings continue.
I'm fairly fixated on the solar-plexus theory at the moment. I have reached the conclusion that there was no little trick or method I could have pulled to quickly calm my over-active middle at the weekend itself. It was doing its job, and quite effectively for others.
What is needed has to happen outside a particular context—and all the time. For instance:
The earth is the Lord's and the power thereof.
A shift of level. Constant remembrance that the heavens and earth declare the glory of God.
That every event is the hand of God, and the heart needs only gratitude to fill it and make it live.
Who can enter the rapt silence, and hear the susurration of wings round the throne? Not me and my solar-plexus!
But if I have forgotten myself, I can walk forward…...
All of the above shifts to the Transformer, and then energies don't collect and get stuck, but I feel the solar plexus must be firm first, to be able to step beyond.
A firm solar plexus will consolidate power and allow it to operate on a good foundation. Only then is it possible to go beyond it, and to “walk with God in the Garden in the cool of the day”.
Adam and Eve, in the first garden, hid from Him among the trees, because they had listened to the serpent (of power) and with their newly acquired knowledge of good and evil, were now committed to rulership, (solar plexus). But they had sacrificed their access to the Garden....
I think it comes down to holding power within a greater context, which is awareness of the 'influx'. That basically is religion-- good old-fashioned Faith. Modern spirituality is so obsessed with the lower domains, (mentality and feeling), endlessly re-making the foundation. With so many make-overs, it never sets firm. The great secret of the garden is rarely approached, there--where the Lord is walking.
And they heard the sound of the LORD God walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and Adam and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the LORD God among the trees of the garden.
I offer a prescription to consolidate the solar-plexus rather than trying for ‘equilibrium’ or any such concept:-
Forget concept and go and work the earth, or dance to some heavy metal, or use your chameleon skills on stage to enchant an audience.
Use your power and it will build, not in the brain but the belly, from which it emanates.
Learn a martial art.
Make some pots and fling them at a wall when you feel tension mounting…..